on boxing day

he called at night.

on christmas day

my phone didnt rang even for once....got 2 responses for my icq messages left yesterday

yes...nth fr. him...again...shouldn't be dissapointted as this is already expected, should i?

what the hell m i wishing for, huh?

MERRY CHRISTMAS

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!!!

it's been more than a month since last time i wrote sth here... yes.. i am really lazy!!

i've been back from home for two weeks now... and i totally collapsed and jumped out of my diet plan already...i'm now back to be an uncontrollable eating bixxh now....I M UNCONTROLLABLE!!!

it's christmas again and i m so lonely... thus just eat eat and eat .... none can make me feel occupied other than food...JUNK FOOD.... i hvn't been cooking proper meal for so long and yesterday i suddenly went for the extreme...... i prepared dinner for myself and my housemate and cooked FRIED INSTANT NOODLES!!!!!!!!! CAN U IMAGINE HOW MUCH OIL THAT IS TO MAKE IT NOT STICK ONTO THE WOK???? yes...i put lots of oil...and the sausages emits oil themselves.... and the instant noodles r oily as well.... but i can't help... i won't care what i m eating while i m depressed...and i dun care how much i m eating as well....

and today i went to the town centre to hv lunch... just dun wanna stay at home on the christmas eve... then went to eat McDonald's....then later drank Burger King's choc. milkshake and bought some choc. doughnuts and a bar of dark choc. as well to prepare for making choc. pudding tonight....later i'll hv my dinner which is tons of chips and grill drumsticks....and wine as well....

btw.. i hvn't been completely drunk before as i can remember....i wonder how much i need to drink until i got drunk ....seems that i m quite a gd drinker huh?! ... or maybe i just never did drank too much!!! i wonder how will i behave after i m drunk?!

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GUYS!!! I M LONELY!!!!! merry merry christmassss....lonely lonely christmassss~~

tell me if anyone hv been missing me...dun say miss...just ever think abt me this christmas...com'on...there must be someone .....

Someone's probably enjoys alot on his chrismas, partying with his friends and his most loved family....and just let me gone mouldy here.....u know what...the loneliness is even more lonely while u r in a relationship but u still feel lonely...do u get what i mean?

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!

(well...i'm just moaning ....)

MERRY CHRISTMAS !!!