hey ... i'll be going home v. soon....since coming back from my trip i've been busy packing up....now's in the finalizing stage....
MY GOAL: to finish diaries abt life in here b4 i leave...though this is difficult coz i was too lazy b4 and now there's just too much to write abt...lots of cookings that i've taken photos but hvn't posted them up yet...so wait and see lor~
right, not a call again but i'm alrite, at least i m not miserable any more past the new yr.
today just feel terrible after having a chat with my sister, feel terribly shame on myself. decided to work it out as one of my new yr's plans.
i thought i was alrite but something triggered me and i gone mad in the end. lead to a thought abt the value of this relationship, extraordinarily calm but hasn't come into any conclusion yet, frustrated though.
OK..here we go my new yr's plan:
most important to love my mother by every means, CANNOT treat her impolitely, MUST be patient to her and support her always.
to be independent, not in a way to escape from mom's control but to show her that i m already grown up and she need not worry about me.
to be independent, in the relationship, if there is still one. stop being miserable over some stupid reactions that received. accept the fact and look ahead. to love myself more so as to reduce the pressure and balance thing out. should always find ways to make myself happy in a relationship.
work hard, save money, financial plan
learn how to cook from my mom, cook without a recipe, have the recipe already remembered by heart during cooking
enjoy life and spend time happier. spice up every week by dinning out and meeting friends at least once or prepare a nice dinner for myself or family during weekends..... though i know i can never be those type of person, but dream to be flirty is quite nice......
this is real difficult...but wish i can be tidier like in such a way that my room is always ready to welcome guests
